Showing posts with label sleep. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sleep. Show all posts

Friday, August 11, 2017

I'm Alive

Hey guys, I know it's been a little over a year now since I last posted, but the idea just crossed my head, so let's see how it goes.

Yesterday I had my follow up appointment to my sleep study. The study was horrible, by the way. First they make you sleep all covered in bands and wires and a thing in your nose, then they wake you up at the crack of dawn, well, before the crack of dawn actually, and they tell you you can't sleep - which of course makes you want to sleep. Then, every two hours they tell you, okay, get some sleep. Sleeping is easier this time because there's not a sensor in your nose. But then comes the worst part, they wake you up and tell you you can't sleep anymore. Five of these little naps you take. As you get more and more sleepy and it's just awful. Or maybe that's just me. While it took me some time to fall asleep during the night, apparently during the day it was a different story. Apparently I fell asleep in, on average, three minutes six seconds on all five naps. The doctor explained that although it was not true narcolepsy because I did not go into REM sleep during the naps, it is treated the same way.

Remember back my sophomore year of college when I had to drop out of school because I couldn't stop sleeping? Well I guess we know why now. Idiopathic hypersomnia. So sleepy.

I've also been having some issues with chronic pain. From what I've heard exercise is super good for it. Which is great because it's so hard to do anything when a. I'm always exhausted and b. my work doesn't even have chairs, it's all standing. (Aside, I work as a pharmacy technician now, counting pills, fitting right?) I'm struggling to figure out a plan I can actually follow through with. Even if I try using an app or keeping track on my phone, I'm just too tired to care. Any suggestions?

That's me in a nutshell exhausted and in pain. What about you all? How have you been this past year?

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Thursday, January 7, 2016

Me #oneword2016

One of my favorite bloggers (and writers... if you have not read Furiously Happy you're doing something wrong) is The Bloggess. She wrote a post called Simple #oneword2016. And she asked us to pick one word for 2016. Her word was "simplify" simplified to "simple." The word I chose was "me."



Interesting choice of word, right? Maybe. I picked "me" because I know I need to focus more on myself than others right now. Being an empath, I spend a lot of time well... empathizing. And while this trait is good, especially in the helping field, which I want to go into, there is a point where it can be too much. Letting others' emotions get to you can be overwhelming. And I want to learn a healthy balance of empathy and selfishness...? Is that the opposite of empathy? I don't know. Close enough.

I also need to focus on myself and my recovery. I need to learn to do things I enjoy. I need to learn how to be content. And I need to learn, really learn, that depression lies. So many things I need to learn to recovery. And not just learn but know. Truly know.

Completely different update (what else is new, right?): As far as sleep goes... it's not. I'm still struggling to fall asleep. I asked my pdoc to change my meds again. Which is a little embarrassing since I saw him yesterday. But you know, we're all friend here... there. Hopefully I'll find something that'll help a little.

What is your #oneword2016?
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